I went MIA from blogging this week/weekend. I just needed to step back. It was a crazy week! Full of sickness, work, school, and lots of time to think about things. And to be honest, thats what I did this weekend. I thought a lot about life:
I am currently in the in-between time in life. And frankly, its quiet boring!
See I am at that point in life where I am not officially done with school, but I am student teaching. So I basically have a job, but I don't get paid for it.
I am in-between living situations. I had to move home while I student teach since I don't get paid for it and don't have much time to work except nannying (not enough to pay for living) so I am that awkward 23 year old living at home but trying to save up and move out!
I am in-between jobs! I couldn't tell you where I will be living 3 months from now, where I will be working, if I will have a job, or anything! It's all up in the air!
I am in-between relationships. I am at the point where all of my friends are married or soon to be married, yet I am still just doing the single thing.
The in-between time kind of sucks. I am not going to lie. If I could fast forward just to know where I will be 3 months from now, what I will be doing, who I will be with, all of the unknowns. Yet at the same time I need to embrace this point!
This is the last time in my life that I will be filled with all of the unknowns of the future. The last semester of college, the last time living with my parents, hopefully one of the last times I will be single (but who knows :) And as much as my type-A personality wants to try to figure everything out and plan out the next 55 years of my life, I am really trying to just embrace the fact that I have no choice but to take my life day by day.
I have no choice but to see what God throws at me. I have no choice but to trust in him and his path for my life. I have no choice but to be patient and wait to see the doors opening for my career, home, love life, basically everything! I will not lie, it is freaking scary! It is really annoying at times to be the only single person at a hang out or wedding, or to be the only one living at home, or the be only 23 year old still in undergrad. But I know this:
God has a plan for me, and his plan is GREAT!
I can't wait to see what this life has in store for me months from now but until then I will be patient. I will enjoy the life I have NOW and leave my worries about the future for another day :)
I'm feeling the same way right now. Although I am not single, I'm 23 and engaged, I'm also in my last year of undergrad AND I'm living with my parents (along with my fiancé and dog). As a part of my program I have to complete a more than likely, unpaid internship, all while we save for our wedding in May (and a place to live). We certainly aren't doing things the 'conventional way' but I have to remind myself to be grateful for such a supportive family, amongst a million other things. You're so right, god does have a plan! Part of all of the fun is that we don't know what that plan is! In the end we're doing everything right, because its what was right for us! And congratulations on being so close to graduating undergrad (at any age!). Good luck girl :)
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ReplyDeletejust keep going! i had a 5yr plan and that's all i focused on when i was in that stage. when building a career, it's often better to be on your own so you can focus (at least for me). just keep it up and you'll get to amazing place :)
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Vodka and Soda
The unknowns are the worst! But I learned if I plan things, they often don't go as planned. Everything always works out for the best! And sometimes it is kind of fun to embrace the moment and be able to take everything as it comes!
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www.McKenzieWild.blogspot.com
You are one fantastic lady! The in between times are so scary, but in looking back over my life I know that the time in between set me up for all of the huge moments in life. It's the time where God prepared my heart & spirit for what was ahead. Love that you took time to reflect and embrace this time. You go girl!
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